In a state of world crisis, zombie pandemic, post-apocalyptic scenario, and hyperinflation.. the only constants that remain are people and buildings. Cities aren't going nowhere regardless of the government that takes control or the disasters that may strike. Buildings will remain where they are and I simply forgot the main premise of this paragraph.

Is mental stability something that can be assessed from within?

When I actually pay attention to how cats (or other animals) live, I wonder how do they obtained such a high level of stamina to do nothing. Really.. I tried doing nothing for 30 minutes and it was killing me.

By nothing, I mean no TV, no internet, no reading, no videogames, no movies, no eating, not being creative, or any of all those activities that keeps us busy everyday. Just by looking at cats and how they can sit or lay on the same spot for hours and hours everyday doing absolutely nothing, just enjoying being alive and taking almost any little opportunity to be distracted and play around a little.. makes me realize about the amount of daily things and activities that I involve myself in, to give sense, purpose and direction to my own life.

For me as a human, it appears that being alive and in good health is not enough to feel happy and be satisfied during my lifetime.

I remember that feeling. Whenever I would meet a girl that I truly liked and perhaps after talking to her for a bit, I wanted to be close. I wanted to be around her all the time.

It was a force like magnetism, except that the desire of wanting to see and be with her did not faded with distance, instead it became more unbearable. One single day without seeing her was too much discomfort. One full week without seeing her was truly painful. Life moved forward and I would be thinking about that girl all day long, looking for excuses to see each other again.

Just being in close proximity was comforting. I don't understand it..

As I move forward in life and see the same pattern in younger people, I realize that I no longer have it. The eagerness to be close in gone. The desperation if days go by without seeing someone I like has disappeared.

I wonder what other feelings or behaviors I might lose along the way

I had a dream last night. There was this old man who lived on a big, bright and modern white home. Very spacious, lots of big windows and with plenty of plants. I believe I approached him and asked about his possessions and he said he didn't have much.. just a few things on a small storage unit and his clothes or beddings in the house and that was about it.

When I asked him about the numerous plants all over his house, he responded "I don't own them.. I just water them to keep them alive"

I wonder if that was a glimpse of my own future, since the response of the old man obviously originated inside my mind.

It appears that the obvious solution to the overpopulation problem, causes a moral dilemma in most human beings.

In the 3 minutes segment of this video, Dr. Albert A. Bartlett explains the simple solution for overpopulation, but I recommend watching the 8 videos of this series to understand why we (population) are becoming a problem to ourselves.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pb3JI8F9LQQ#t=336

"Can you think of any problem in any area of human endeavor on any scale, from microscopic to global, whose long-term solution is in any demonstrable way aided, assisted, or advanced by further increases in population, locally, nationally, or globally?"
- Prof. Al Bartlett

If you strip a man from his toys, his house, his car and material possessions, his appointments and busy lifestyle, his money and his job, and his circle of friends and family.. what are you left with?

Not to sound like a "Fight Club" movie remake, but.. do we create an identity for ourselves with the things we buy, or the busy lifestyles we adopt, or the amount of time we spend in our jobs? And exactly what sort of individual we would be left with if we declined those things, activities and acquaintances?

Why do most of us require external motivation to accomplish things? Are we not good enough to motivate ourselves to be fit, work, learn a useful topic, build something, write a novel, or perform creative activities?

How many things have we actually done and continue to do in order to impress ourselves?

About ten years ago I understood almost no English. I could not speak it, let alone write it. Even today I am not very fluent when I speak, and I have this heavy accent too, but it appears that over the years I have acquired an acceptable writing level (must have been all that reading and writing I do).

And now, I wish to learn something else. Perhaps Mandarin since it has the highest number of native speakers. I thought of Russian, but maybe is just that I like the English accent of Russian native speakers. Or perhaps Japanese, so that I can finally turn off the subtitles of all those movies I enjoy. And finally I was thinking of French.. I hear that females like it, not to mention that Canada is just right there.

Why have two when you can have three?